I truly feel your pain Justin. I've worked damned hard to get where I was, I invested tens of thousands in kit (which is now practically worthless but costing me money to store and insure) and I really can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
My own feelings are that it's going to be a very long time before we can get back to doing what we're good at and love. Mentally, 2020 has been an absolute shipwreck.
Benny mentioned SEO and marketing in an earlier post. Yes, I've dropped the ball on that one. I'm now at position 36 in the UK on Google as opposed to around 4 before all of this kicked off. I'm at the position at the moment where I don't actually feel comfortable taking on bookings because I really don't know if they'll happen. What's the point?
This year has been stressful. I've been lucky in that all but one wedding has moved to a date next year. Will those dates happen or will be be going through the same struggle next year to reschedule to 2022?
I desperately want to fire up the kit again (as do several of my delivery colleagues). After all, one night of partying is equivalent to 1.5 weeks of very hard graft. Visiting my lockup once a week to check everything's OK is depressing to say the least. It's kind of weird seeing the PA which won't be blasting out anytime soon and rolling the barrels of the lighting which won't be blinding guests for a long time to come